Sickness really takes over my whole mental state. Yes, I have anxiety but it has been worse as a result of being sick. For 3 weeks now I have been petrified to leave my hour in case I get sick. It is holding me back from so many daily activities I love, such as the gym. And also some I don’t like as much such as work. Every time I leave my house I feel extremely nauseous and think I’m going to throw up. I never do but I get hot and sweaty. Anytime I begin to feel nauseous my anxiety hits me like bus. Full impact: can’t breathe, hearts racing, lightheaded, can’t think straight. Of course all of this makes my nausea 100x worse. Blood results will be in on Monday to hopefully give me some answers this. It’s been a couple weeks of hell being me. It has been bringing me down and making me even more unhappy. I am stressed that the doctors won’t be able to diagnose my problem and that I will be living with this. I do not cope well with my anxiety so I’m just praying for some answers. Apparently being extremely healthy and fit doesn’t make you prone to problems with your body, but all I can do is hope. This is really a setback though considering I was going to enroll in a fitness competition Monday with the beautiful online trainer, Katy Hearn. Her stuff is great and I would be honored to learn more things about fitness from the best. If you are into fitness or looking to be I recommend looking her up. Can only keep my head up and keep pushing forward to make a full recovery and get back in the gym.
So today I experienced hell…I did the insanity workout. It was by far the hardest thing I have ever done. I have done all the videos such as p90x and have always been a basketball player. I do HIIT training almost 4 days a week but I thought I was going to die doing it. Not in a bad way though! My friend is a certified instructor and has a class. It had me dripping sweat in 5 minutes and by the end of the 45 minute workout I just layed on the floor. If you want to try and challenge yourself then do this workout. For someone as physically active as me it was extremely difficult. I’m willing to do anything at this point to get into the best shape I can be. It gets hard eating healthy all the time but anything to get to where I want to be
No workout is a good workout unless you are dripping sweat at the end. That is the philosophy I live by. You don’t need to get a gym membership for a good workout, you can do it at home. Even just buying some resistance bands off of Amazon for cheap can give you a better workout. If you don’t want to spend any money there are plenty of workouts that can be done without using machines or weights. Personally I need the weights and all the machines because I can do more of a variety with them. Anything is possible if you get out there and do it. Working out everyday will make you feel so much better. I know I don’t feel like I can go forward with my day until I go to the gym. Finally starting to see my lats. Can’t wait until my back muscles are more defined!
Health has always been a huge part of my life, but just recently I have become more serious about it. I have always been a gym rat and seeing results is the greatest thing in the world. It makes me feel proud of myself. Although I may cheat and eat some bad things, I am only human and it will happen. As long as I get back on track then it’s okay. It’s hard to try and eat healthy when no one in my family does. I am in school right now to become a dietitian so let’s hope this all pays off. Or who knows maybe health will take me in a different direction. Progress is slow but that’s the beauty in it. I enjoy working for what I want, which is to have abs!! I have baby abs right now but they will get there by summer! (: