Sickness really takes over my whole mental state. Yes, I have anxiety but it has been worse as a result of being sick. For 3 weeks now I have been petrified to leave my hour in case I get sick. It is holding me back from so many daily activities I love, such as the gym. And also some I don’t like as much such as work. Every time I leave my house I feel extremely nauseous and think I’m going to throw up. I never do but I get hot and sweaty. Anytime I begin to feel nauseous my anxiety hits me like bus. Full impact: can’t breathe, hearts racing, lightheaded, can’t think straight. Of course all of this makes my nausea 100x worse. Blood results will be in on Monday to hopefully give me some answers this. It’s been a couple weeks of hell being me. It has been bringing me down and making me even more unhappy. I am stressed that the doctors won’t be able to diagnose my problem and that I will be living with this. I do not cope well with my anxiety so I’m just praying for some answers. Apparently being extremely healthy and fit doesn’t make you prone to problems with your body, but all I can do is hope. This is really a setback though considering I was going to enroll in a fitness competition Monday with the beautiful online trainer, Katy Hearn. Her stuff is great and I would be honored to learn more things about fitness from the best. If you are into fitness or looking to be I recommend looking her up. Can only keep my head up and keep pushing forward to make a full recovery and get back in the gym.
Health has always been a huge part of my life, but just recently I have become more serious about it. I have always been a gym rat and seeing results is the greatest thing in the world. It makes me feel proud of myself. Although I may cheat and eat some bad things, I am only human and it will happen. As long as I get back on track then it’s okay. It’s hard to try and eat healthy when no one in my family does. I am in school right now to become a dietitian so let’s hope this all pays off. Or who knows maybe health will take me in a different direction. Progress is slow but that’s the beauty in it. I enjoy working for what I want, which is to have abs!! I have baby abs right now but they will get there by summer! (: